| never again is what you swore |
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...now you stand there tongue tied, you better learn your lesson well. hide what you have to hide and tell what you have to tell. you'll see your problems multiply if you continually decide to faithfully pursue the policy of truth.
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[May.14.2012 @ 02:44pm] |
Brian Blancett I feel like ragle gumm when I start rescaling my conscious. Competing levels of magnification. Am I going crazy or becoming sane? Messages in english disguised as german. How to spot an alien. Return to roswell. Invent armageddon.then prevent armageddon. Reset the alarm and go back to sleep. Dream until your dream come true.
Saturday at 8:43am via mobile · Like · 1.
Brian Blancett Naked and drinking brandy. Caught in the current. Staying in flow. Manic induction.
Brian Blancett He lays on my clothes and shakes like a leaf. A worn out metaphor falls out of a tree.
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Brian Blancett I desire for my earnings to take on greater contexts than my own personal survival. I get nervous though simply regarding that triviality. Food rent soap letter paper. Shit. I make two dollars an hour and if my guests are not happy then I could potentially starve in the streets. With the others. They seem well hidden but I know they are out there. Where I belong. Where I can do something more important than opening another bottle of wine. I am smiling because I know its all temporary. I'm enjoying this moment because its going to become so much more difficult when I go home. My life is filling up and I am in love with all of it.
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Brian Blancett Kurt vonnegut!! James joyce. Help me, Fydor D. Walt whitman. I can't get me no, satisfaction. The grrrrrrrreat gatsby. TERMS OF ENDEARMENT. William blake. So much to do so little time.
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| 818 13th st. galveston, TX |
[May.01.2012 @ 10:49am] |
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So lots of news good and bad, not sure if I'm repeatin myself here = the tabc license for waterman won't be approved for at least another two weeks, my $$ is pretty bleak until we open on Friday and that would be no big deal if I had food but I will make it on eggs beans and noodles which isn't so terrible if you think about it...last year I read a book titled "on a dollar a day", where these two teachers set out to live on one dollars worth of food each each day for 30 days. They pulled it off but there diet wasn't exactly varied and they were able to buy in bulk. They were both vegan I think. Anyway I shouldn't complain because there are probably people right here in galveston that have it worse PLUS I have an awesome antique carriage house which came completly furnished with kitchen stuff and linen and well basically everything, which is exactly what I needed until I manage to get my junk from houston. Kind of tuff w/o a car which is my main challenge. So yes I am lucky once again that I do have a nice enough bike that will get me to and from work. Its about 25 miles round trip which I can handle. The traffic is a concern though and at night it will be more of a gamble then I would like. Sooooo...I basically have to get a car to avoid the worry and possibility of getting hit. I actually got a ride back yesterday w/o even asking which is pretty nice. Yep. I was also verrrry fortunate that Floyd allowed Jack to stay here with me and not even ask for an additional deposit! Awesome!! I can't even imagine walking away from this ABP free cable and internet place with super nice owners...majn did I stumble into a perfect situation. Once I kill all these damn fleas Jack is apparently infested with and get a car I will be titanic. No icebergs!!!
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| moral sin? |
[Oct.16.2011 @ 03:09am] |
See how it is............
The only lesson you teach us, wrong and right -You ask my origin
The only lesson you teach us, wrong and right -They ask my origin, it's a moral sin, it's a moral sin 1
my step-father did IT. i feel he is not revered. not properly = however, i think he should be. he is not revered properly because he has no document. the only documents he left behind are inside me. i think i am his liason and more specifically his antithesis. he finally gave up control, by taking complete control - of the one thing he only dreamed to have control of = his own life. he deserves more. but of course, we all do.
apprehending the breadth of cognitive dissonance and the resulting damage as a sum of my mother, this man, and myself (not to mention the rest of "our" family) is a challenge i quite unfortunately feel not equivalent too.
i feel ronnie is still here. not just with me necessarily, as i used to feel, but with all of us, needing forgiveness or understanding, or whatever it is that overcomes all the anger and helplessness, and...shame?
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| being found |
[Nov.27.2010 @ 02:39pm] |
if there is only one thing i have learned its this much =
getting lost is simply a precursor to learning your way back. =]
how you ever going to really appreciate where you are at or what you got if you never get lost or lose in the first place?
obvious, right?
i have to admit though, my wanderlust is not what it once was, but i like to think that is more a good thing rather than something else.
as for fishing, who really knows. i suppose its about finding/having the "right" bait. =]
happy holidays,
bb
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| dedicated? |
[Mar.13.2009 @ 08:45am] |
You can't make up anything anymore. The world itself is a satire. All you're doing is recording it.
~ Art Buchwald
...and so i have decided to return to doing my part in the recording. who knows something original might pop out despite the world.
i'm going to try.
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| notes from the underground |
[Sep.19.2007 @ 06:53pm] |
Thus it would follow, as the result of acute consciousness, that one is not to blame in being a scoundrel; as though that were any consolation to the scoundrel once he has come to realise that he
actually is a scoundrel. ~ fydor d.
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